Back and Forth

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You know whats annoying? When people say I haven’t heard from you in awhile.


I went to see my stepdad for fathers day and my stepmom was there and she was saying that I haven’t reached out since I moved out in March-but it was said in a really snarky way.  Mind you, I have reached out and have asked to see my stepdad but he said he is always busy and will get back to me.

Well the phone goes two ways-you haven’t reached out to me either. I think it is a little rude and hypocritical for someone to say that I haven’t done my part to maintain a relationship when I did with the person I was closest too.  Because that does not include you does not mean that I am not staying connected or reaching out.

The thing with relationships is that I don’t need random people in my life; if you are not making a positive impact on my life or my happiness then why should I feel like I owe you anything?  Yes I know you and just because you are connected to someone I care about I don’t necessarily need to be your best friend.  If it works out that way then that is fine but I am not going to force myself to care about someone or to have a shallow relationship with someone.  The thing with me is that I will try my best with you but if you keep neglecting me or ignoring me, then why should I keep putting myself out there? Slowly, the calls will be less and our relationship will dwindle...

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