End of a year
This year has been absolutely crazy, personally and work-wise. I feel like I barely made it by and on most days I wanted to just stay in bed all day. But here I am, at work at 9:29 am on my last day before summer break and I am writing here. I am filling out progress reports and writing letters to parents about the kiddos that are leaving to kindergarten.
I feel like a failure. A lot of my kiddos didn't meet their goals this progress report and that is killing me. I can do my best to justify why that was but when it comes down to it I was unable to support my kids like I wanted to. I was very busy testing kids for about every day for the last two months which did not leave me time to work on the goals that I wrote for my kids. I expected my staff to take the slack (especially since I told them that that was the expectation) and assist with my shortcomings. I was left to scramble for the last two weeks of school to work on these goals with the kids.
*Small breakdown and I continue to write*
I dont know what is happening and why our system is so broken. I have an impossible standard to meet and the ones who are suffering are the kids. We need to find a way that works for everyone because if I am told that I need to be with the children for the 3 hours they are here but I need to test for their IEPs, how can I accomplish both? All I want is for my students to be successful and to make progress. I dont think I did that this year but I did the best I could; next year will have to be different because I will not do this again. I cant.
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