The Honest Truth

A goal that I have for the next year, at least, is to learn to be nicer to myself and my thinking.  I already know that this is going to be extremely hard.  I am very set in my ways and I am an extremely harsh critic of myself which makes something like this difficult.  I love myself, sure.  But what I am saying is that I need to  forgive  myself-when things mess up, when work stuff happens, when life stuff happens.  Bottom line: things happen and I need to be more caring to myself.  I need to have some more self-reflection about things and realize that sometimes, shit does JUST happen.   I am a planner.  Everyone who knows me KNOWS that I am a planner.  I like to be on time-this is a big one for me.  I RESPECT peoples time and when I say I will be there AT A TIME then I will be there AT THAT TIME.  I also expect that from people.  It does not bother me for everyone to do it but it bothers me when people close to...

 I found this posted on Instagram through a hashtag I follow and it just stood out to me.  Oftentimes, I find that I love hard.  Normally I think it is a good thing and something I really love about myself.  After seeing my thoughts written by someone else I have found it can be unhealthy to love someone SO much, especially if it means I am loving myself less.  To this day, I focus on how to make others happy, over-perform or over-compensate, and have unrealistic expectations.  I often would justify a partners behavior which made me feel like I did something wrong.  We often forget to think about and take care of ourselves.  It is important in a relationship to take a step back sometimes and refocus.  I have thought a lot about going back to therapy and I feel like if I am thinking about it then I need to go before I become so overwhelmed that I am unsure how to cope.  I am not trying to say that my current relationship is causing me to ...