The Honest Truth

This is the last post about you. I used to be a very optimistic person when it came to love. I would plan my future and life with such hope.  Now, I find myself using "if" as oppose to "when." And I am so mad at you for that.  I want to be able to love fully again because that is one of my best qualities.  I am so mad at you for taking that away from me! How dare you! You thought that way and now I am that way?!! How is that even fair? I miss the old me; the one that had such high regard for love and the future.  I hope that one day I will be able to see her again. Because she was great.

In this photo series, I was hoping I would eventually find growth and closure.  I feel like a lot has happened for me personally and the fact that I had to go through these things without you, on my own, makes me feel like I can do a lot more than I thought I was capable of. So, to everyone who asked how I was doing and to all the people that want to know (for whatever internal reason you have), here is how I was. Eventually the photos became less and less. I guess I stopped needing that from you, whatever I felt like I needed. I have another picture, one that I took just a few minutes ago.  But, there are some things I still want to keep private for now.  So until then, thank you for everything you taught me and for the growing and learning I did with you. I have learned a lot about myself since our separation and I am a much stronger person now.  I wish you nothing but happiness, I truly do.  All I ever wanted was for you to be happy.  All I still  want, is for you to be happy.